Another year has
Come and gone in a hurry:
Time waits for no one
It was my birthday today. I turned 32.
It feels a bit weird, saying that. 32. I don’t really feel 32. But then I never really felt 18 or 25 either. I guess they’re all just numbers to me in the end.
The weather was beautiful earlier and I went down to the lake for about an hour in the afternoon. I took this photo while I was down there. I try to take a photo on my birthday each year and I thought this would be a nice one with the yachts in the background.
In taking it I set up my camera on a table overlooking the lake, then positioned myself and triggered a timer with an app on my phone. I love how easy wifi makes taking portraits like this these days. It’s all right there on your phone, no bulky remote trigger required!
I also took this photo of a father and son while I was down there. It was a nice moment and I like how it looks in black and white.
Photos and haiku © CJ Levinson 2016
Another year passes
I am older
But no wiser:
Life goes on
I turned 28 yesterday. I don’t like much fuss over my birthday so I just had a fairly quiet day overall; I spent a few hours looking through some old photos and mementos (a bit of a birthday tradition), then had afternoon tea with my parents at our local coffee shop, where we shared a couple of slices of cake (chocolate mud and butterscotch caramel) as a birthday treat. They looked so nice I just had to take a photo. Tasted just as nice too.
On the whole though I spent most of the day at home, reflecting on the past year, something I do most birthdays really. There’s been a bit of a different feel to it this year though, turning 28, knowing the big 3-0’s not that far away anymore. I guess it’s made me think a bit more about where I am in my life right now.
To be honest this last year has been a difficult one for me. I am still not very well at the moment, which is why I haven’t updated this blog in a while. I’m managing for the most part but it’s frustrating, particularly as there’s a lot I’d been planning to do this year like studying that I just don’t feel up to at the moment. It’s also been a difficult year emotionally. My grandmother (my father’s mother) died in May which hit me very hard and a few weeks after that, my grandfather (my mother’s father) suffered a very severe stroke as well. He is improving now but is unable to manage his affairs and assets and that’s caused a lot of division in the family, deciding how best to take care of him and my grandmother. I also broke up with my girlfriend last month, which was very painful. Her family never really approved of me and much as I loved her, it just wasn’t going to work in the end… it was the right thing to do but that doesn’t make it any easier unfortunately.
Given everything that’s happened, I guess I feel like I’m at a bit of a crossroads at the moment and that was what was on my mind most of yesterday, where I am now, where I’d like to be in another couple of years… I guess birthdays often have a way of bringing up those kind of thoughts and reflections. I’m still working out exactly what I want to do but I’m hoping my 29th year will be a better one. I think it will be.
In any case I just wanted to post a quick update to let people know I’m still here. I’ll be posting more regularly again from now on and hopefully will have a new poem to post soon too… I’ve been working on it for about six months now so it shouldn’t be much longer. Honest.
I thought I’d share this song as well as it’s one of my favourites and I think after an eventful year, it sums up how I’m feeling perfectly at the moment. It’s End of the Line by The Traveling Wilburys. Enjoy. 🙂
“A birthday—and now a day that rose
With much of hope, with meaning rife—
A thoughtful day from dawn to close:
The middle day of human life.”
— Jean Ingelow
I turned 27 today. I’ve never been that big on birthdays so I’ve just had a quiet day at home with my family today. I spent the afternoon looking through some old photos and keepsakes as well which was nice. It’s become a bit of a birthday tradition over the years.
My father bought this cake from Michel’s Patisserie earlier today as well as a birthday treat. It’s a mix of milk chocolate and white chocolate mud cake with just a hit of rum. It was delicious and almost too pretty to eat! Almost. 😉